ok so i am kinda yes and no about quitting soccer. i am 16 years old and have been playing soccer since i was in second grade. i know this is long but please read this and bare with me 🙂
so i am about to start my junior year in high school and the soccer season is going to start in september. i have been playing on my high school varsity soccer team since i was a freshman. but ever since then i have stopped enjoying soccer. i no long want to play. when i was a freshman all the girls were mean and they made each game seem more like work than recreational. my sophomore year was better since all those girls were gone. i thought it would all be good again. however i still did not want to play anymore. i also really dislike the coach. looking back, before high school i was so good at soccer. i easily dribbled in and out of players and scored lots of goals. many people thought i was one of the best. in one season i scored 15 goals. but now i have only scored 3 goals in two years. i am no longer thought of as really good like i used to be.
i think i am not doing so well, because i am not motivated and i think i lost the passion i had for soccer. it has become more of a misery to go.
i have contemplated quiting for a while but have not for some reasons. i feel as if i was able to get some motivation and passion back that i would be a good player again. but then sometimes i feel as if i can not force inspiration or motivation, that is supposed to come to me.
when i watch soccer games and think of scoring goals and making great passes i want to continue playing. but then i think of how the past seasons have gone so bad and it makes me want to stop.
i know that there is no way that i would regret quitting, but that i might regret staying. but what if i actually do good this season? I AM SO CONFLICTED.
so used to be MY LIFE. i revovled around soccer. everyone used to know me as the soccer player, but now all of that has changed.
what do you think i should do? should i stay in soccer or should i quit? and how shold i tell my coach if i do decided to quit. should it be by email or is it better in person?
right now i am playing in a summer practice league type of thing with the varsity school team. we have a short game on thursday i was thinking of playing this game and seeing how that goes. should i do that?
also if i were to quit, should i practice one last time and then tell my coach after the practice?
take up jogging